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be-I won't be cheerful."

1H, jerked his arm from mine and went out of the room. And all the joy went out of my summer.

I ‘hadpictured- it, for those few minutes, as being a little honey- moon repeated, in a place like my dear white house in Wsllsville. I pictured the black and silver even- lngg, and the fragrant air, the heavenly peace and calm of It. Per- separated from roaring nerve-wearing City would also quiet down and be more his

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flmm n red?" W11 looked Slllrley remarked

. pulling her ssh. r as she rose to leave.

alone. After aill, that was down for week end

- 01g library I wdretailllcegwelxisfhei turned. w . nlled 0W9" 1° us’ 18—-i.'lllS youth from

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wdnya-g ago ‘that

black?" hirnwgzmn angvered

after we were settled, I 1 "All the week en

salt again. I went to often slept in the aft outdoors digging in watching the green d was outdoors in ind weeding my p books on g~arden~

‘the dusting." ' I never dutlied. Fan- e 1161115 her own cook

‘But Shirley never all, not that summer. llllellilected. she was

This tiny hope persisted while I made the rounds of real estate of- fices and answered ads in papers. Otherwise It was a joyless task. for

the sun and w flowers. I read u

A new toasted corn flake-

thin in texture, eating all you Quality! Satisfying!

Win refused to have anything to do with It or even to choose one from the three or

her father's chauffeu

etter. I've tried them. 1111- after we had moved

clewr at that. he e 1111321191? color. II-Ie died. 11°01‘ “fir; 1 have to henna. It's the 1 11651; dye in the hands of

' o o o sweeter in flavor, fulfilling in . I expect from it I I v Eventually I decided on a little NOLIIISIIIIIg. house in Conngcticut, an hour on an express and 1'5 minutes on the trolley from the station. The house was beyond the little town, in open, rolling country, it was very tiny, but rather charming. I went out to see it, made notes of things send to it, and hired a man to dig and plant a garden for us. And all the rest of the time, I lived In expectation of t.bls quiet home. I was so tired I was begin- ning to feel ill again. llVIy strength had never come entirely back to me and the winter had been men- tally and physically hard on me. "For heaven's sake, if we're going to bury ourselves alive this sum- mer, let's live in the meantime," Win said one night. I thought possibly if we went enough he might tire. I-Ie might at least find the country restful for

dared whether this would n Win. But it did not seem o s "in a few days. 1 ceased eabout Gwendolyn's hair. 11, note from Win55 111011191‘- use to send any 111ml" 1°’ scheme of geltllls 111m ‘my 1,111," she said. “You'll only 1- it on high living. l R1101"- 11 by your ieilters. Befllllesr paid a stack of bills for

Constances dresses. “X1 t5. ca“ repairs, your rent “r other things you 1111"’ llgfou 1151111 me as reference '10,, wciit 1h debt they e: Yo“ get out 0.1 debt, and . what I've P111“ 101' W“ er. and we'll see about that

saw Shirley she had forgotten her I lisp in the more serious interest- a very small infant son. "Our last nighit, here,” a litt.le sigh when Win

“What an awful hole, there ‘isn't a thing to do." Win would grumble. I looked out from the porclr of the The lawn sloped to a low 111 80 white painted. fence. was a stone wall, and a field t dropped down toward a creek. A full moon hung over the country, we coulld see miles where we stood. The hills rose gen- bly toward the clear blue and silver of the sky, a waving ibrown line that our eyes followed for long dis-

But the ‘trunks have

and the ‘boxes and ltomorrow morrow you'll come home to n, d |I shall cook and a wee little :place in the country."

"Well. let's make now, since tomorrow "Now don't look as cd you, silly child. 1e country whcn -I get there. 'But do let's have o. nice time tonight. Did you save out 3

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lllehiud us, in the valley, the town II-ay, a patch of lit-tie lights gathered together into a hollow. Our house was high, one reason why I had

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II nodded. But ‘l had promised to go sec lMrs. Anderson and the baby Connie, and not all Win's persuas- ion would keep me away.

"The bniby hasnlt ‘been well and I must see her ‘before "Do come along!"

"Now what on earth do see a ilrasherwomun

So we rushed around more madly than before. One night Win lost $100 playing poker, and laughed joyfully when I won back $25 of it.

I gave little dinner parties twice a week, arranging to have half a dozen people so my handle it, buying expensive delic- acies and going extravagantly into ilowers for decorations, our place, after all, was small. The rest of the time, we dined out, we danced, we went to the new shows we made the rounds of roadhouses, we threw away our time and our

1119- h "It's ti-k do Ii t, ' what are we £91118 to do? 1 9 l’ 511 1915 Win, too bored to stay h-ome, was I threw a cape around me and we trumped miles 1 wam m along the roads. As we topped the ‘g baby for?" hill above our house we could sec on 1991 youp it, and the village beyond it, black rnnlly 111111911 sbndoxvs of houses and two church ke 11 1311131111 spires, and the gleam of the bay Maud join me beyond-for we were only n. few We'll wait for miles from the Sound.

“It's so lovely, Win, how can you help liking it?" I said. anxious at tho town, and look ho stands out from tho trees an

My OWN PLAN .1 1eavey- 1 ready enough.

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e was fond oi dong? 8110111! :1 great funny lvrtts eating into me. s together. Yet cvcn Ncdda was not above gossiping.

11, gomplote control of my and wo had to please

“mp1,. 1",“, to get out of siunmor." I answered.

1,1111 It must be thousands !l‘1I boiler borrow from‘

DISCONTENT

Laio spring passed into summer "Look, look Iibegan to pick up again. I Wu’ w 0111' 1101159 the sheen come

At Gwen's! Of course, it “was al- ways at (Pr/en's. 1I3ut I was to see the baby again,

-“And it's the country will roses back in your cheeks ago Mrs. Anderson told me.

“I wish I could takerConn it would iput roses in her loo," I said, looking at I wanted to pick 11, ms and carry her 51'

011011 (‘l0l)("l1l(?I1I, an: y won't ‘bl- happy. Wlllll‘. I believe sin-l ivas ‘fond of him, Shirley's :1 SWI‘ little thing at ll(‘1.iI'I. Iiut nits he is from one world 11nd slic un-

Win bought. me a Jewelled cigar- ette case, being overjoyed lbecause I was smoking. I decided philoso- phically than at could be sold when we ran out of

11 [he and a richer gold creep yellow of the ‘light in the lIv- ‘r1 1061M o1’ the sun and improved health.

115 'I‘I1ey will for :1 I sun" Nvddu nff Q1_‘\\'iil1 u llltlu fueling of rrllci‘.

' I “'41s stirry she bull spoken us" ‘lSllc did. It upset mo. Little by lit»

lug room window." “If you'd lived in such u place ns 888-111. 1-119 DEB-Ply is all your life, as I had,” Win mall? 11055956011. id, “you'd hate it too." “But we have to save. We can e her all summer for loss than shrlvels up ealllll’ l O00, and save tlic iivc we owe “n” Yollml-‘ll 11ml your mother. Win, you wzmt to get ‘frank Am" H8171“ 531d 0 ahead. How else can you do It?" 3N0 other way. I don't suppose," in conceded. “I'm tired bciween ,_ , wo women. Onc holds my money and that 1I 1“ ‘m mm," m a ‘ml-m oflbccnuse my father mailc n silly will. The other holds the uioncy I corn

My skin took on,1

“he firm‘ Then 1.11 pay whiteness it nor-l

.11,1§n1ie<l. "Please don't. “He's from a better world thun1 rrlet would make snrcas- she," I protested.

"Maybe. But she ivzts brought 11p to take for granted n Int of little 1111-,’ important things that nmzxigv 11111111‘

certain kinds of wollo ‘ésluugoagdie can't QIVG lléfltllillt, tl1ou_-_'l1 Iu-r1l11l11k abifirtlier may supply illv ways d095, That-S W111, 1 wanted m her litIIllljf7S 1105111011 ma make a brilliant while you were a "To pay the debt you contrnct- your beauty? ed” I flung back angered by this

"You belong to "You've got your picture in this

week's ‘Town tEventsfl" he once coming joyfully room. “Look here, ‘One of our pret tiest young inn-trons, who Is enter- taining lavishly this winter."

"Does that sort of thing please you?" I asked. The paper was de- votod mostly to gossip and usually rather vicious gossip.

"Well, aren't you one of the pret- tiest women in the city? You are when you dress up and smile, and don't look cross and sleepy by ten every nightfl I~Ie leaned over and kissed my cheek lightly.

"That was _my reward "for nights of silly frivolity, for people 1 didnlt like about things that didn't Interest me. I gave a little sigh, took a cigarette and lit it, not -thlnking what I was doing, and Iiegan reading the very mag- azine I hated. Without knowing it, I was being absorbed In the life I

,\\‘1'1'i= closing in ziround undermining my lllClIlS. Supposc I should mlopt their cyn- ul \\'l)l'lilly point n1‘ view.’ What Suppose I Slltllllil begin 1n 111111 tliu great things of 1111-‘ 1,,,,,1,.§» 1111,1‘\\'cl‘0 the things that kc them ill",11911011119911‘? 11131911 for 1.111110511115011 9VOI‘_\'\\'ll\‘I'(3. She'll be» drop-l 1 111B 11913111 bfl-peti little by little. 'l'h0n she'll be ‘unhappy an ddivorcc happens that way.‘ ‘ “You talk Iilke my father and i11_v‘1.‘/—11111 l 1111111. 1 aunt," I protested Harriet expects just that to hapwil" s; 1-0911, 83:11am in my case. Ilut it won't of all, the very thingl want tn gcti‘ away from is this sill - called society lifo." “But it's the vcry thin: your Iius-f elban-d wants to get into." Nctltlu nil-I wered, gathering u handful 01' sand nd letting it. run through hor finn~11111l We hail been swimiuliig and but

her u I11 my ar l0 intention of ‘borrowing p

, 1111111113" Winthrop began ,1“; “I'll ‘borrow from in, she's offi-red—"

1i tluh. hngrier than ever

‘But I did not dare.

And again I felt, as I drove up to Gwen's, iihai. In the litt Side iliit I had touched

noon. "You're quite beaut

You can retain your beat

your thirties. After that, y

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hone thing you will not

1111i, "it you tin-I'll leave

1 hat wants to got—"

lllrilf. Don't blaze away

_ Itfai hen-perked by my Jmlght IIS well be by my 1|

1111591 and 11111115. 1.1, I 11ml bl-cn so sure lovc was evq I went. into Gwen's drawlngioom it was early for her crowd. It was only ten, and at ten, they were ris- ing froin the cigarettes nnd liquors that followed dinner, to begin the evening's festivities.

Her lhutlcr announced my nnihe. I saw “"111 start. suddenly, almost bores me to dethth." guiltlly, Jump ‘back. Gwen was ncur him vcry near him. .Sl1e turne greet ‘me with superb ease and as-

111m_ 1111h1-11y111BuI tlle question was coming

‘ nnrl more insist '“’I‘0 Whom?" I aske

Aunt Harriet had com much persuasion nd. I had made the gue It nice as possible by dre Wltli the things brough city apartment, and I man from the village to do mos t she wns a wore 1111 l. and Aunt Harriet, aft.e and Sunday of poiitela. w“ T133113’ lo be perfect-

Snmctimes I looked at “in im- rsnnnlly, ivnndering llllflllt hl11i. in‘ _ 1r11-5111l1c cvuillllus we sat on the porch 11,3 unztimes, more often in tlic lliilc 4

y Emmy g-nwlivlng room whore Win read mapors and I rend or sowed. I could!

sec his 1ir0filc when .l glanced up. l was and lu- wasift lmndsomta1 (in hail been wondcrI'1ill_y'clear‘ nlivp when I first kncw 111111.!

He was ormtrite at once. “Pm a brute. I can't seem to e help it lI hate this sort of life.

cut, and it when‘ true. It first time that my will had lo direct conflict with his, halihot iron. I had always and would continue to do

"We'll have people down every d to week end-J’

“Who can we have, In such a you doin-g the

_ of the work. Bu myself stay calm, and 11m, 11,,1e__w1111 work? How does that look?"

"It looks at least as ‘though we

‘i,- my plan. We $5.001) or so. Let's sublet ant’! We can do that for

angel of charity! telling me about your

MADE IN CANADA

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grmving misery. l Ilnt Win never looked llp. lwcut on rcutliuu.

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l. between happiness and a. gradually

Jlc hzul Zlli irregular 1irofilc, not

_ _ 1weak looking. Ills mouth-it could 111911115 111 be tender as I well know. It could llssllvlilllmls~ b!» linril t0o~ 21nd ilicn he lrmkcd

1 .21 lmil nun. Ills llillI‘ was nit-c in the u! 1111- SIIIIIUII‘

11rd)’ it went buck frmn his fuflrliiizul 1111s chin “'21s nut stnnnu, though It ivus wull shaved, it‘ was (lccidcdiv

"19- Wl-‘Yclliki: his motlicr. Ills nice {Ifilylfill

could not so» the eyes nmr.

CLISIII of my gaze.

ying iisiiligliis 1izhper.

‘Pllk-‘aiid unhappy."

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l1"? rcgctutlng." laugh for a. long time.

cried.

mo tihys indoors at tlue orrii-hj 11 hilmieileil 11ml we 111111

ere trying to pay our debts and slate financially. n owing everyone,

wus iiglitiiig against, beginning to tolerate it, accept it. lI wondered whether I would ever come to the place where I even liked it?

and impolite by protege. So sweet of you to take

interest in these things!” greenish eyes glinted amusen as she looked at mo.

“How white you are! It's 1400i you are going to romc quiet p‘.

ere lying on tin» bench llllIlOI‘ 111111111116 cve sunshade. "Look how be runs all Gwendolyn. It's bccu in Town Id ents twice now—-‘l1nndsome ‘dander frequently wltli a young bond salesman wluhlll

i» cover our rent on it and \\'1='ll sell my car, 191D. 11ml will cut down 'e nclilicr of us need 9'11 so to the country. i within commuting dis-

“11 have a clean H”? That's better tha m" you know. as Charles Young docs." "Oh I never see him any more," Win dismissed him easily. course it will take more to

y vciitihtvllovci‘ limited 11 1 lawns. had affcctcd him as i1 haul i SQnL-llfaffvctcil inc.

liven if you don't like being Iiorc. c Ircsli air ziudilio q

51m ‘"19 111N111: In a little rocker I changed froml

my. working (111953 Frocked and patted

THE ‘ CHANGE she was waiting 101-1

uings and nights indocrs1suvsts the following “Tf-‘lifillil- “"111 nd I spent o. long Saturday morn- ng working on the lawn and amour:

cyvs would Intro rcdccmcrl a fucc fur loss attractive than his, but I

He looked up. drawn by the mag-

“\'\'li:1tYs 11p. Connie?" lie asked

1 _ v “Nothlngfl I answered. "I wish 5111'" "l 111111- ifllllvsoiiiciinius you-liked it better 111111 here. I don't like to see you borcti

l \\'in picked up a cigarette and lit

“I'm not ilear." he answered gen- “I'in standing it much gem-r than I expected. I think I must be

I bcgau to laugh, the first free

“You're not, you are relaxing," l

Jhc Ilowcrs and in the afternoon we

uict is timing (lay calms cool and delightful.

to rest. Win hasn't - '4 care of you I'm afraid." I-Icr volt-c croonod as she turn-rd t0 smile :11.

nthrop. "Another cigarette, Win’! No, Connie. I shan't really. You do not look well—and you ‘know you don't them. Wcll, if you must!" Shc held

recently sloped with , I _")'OiI'IilT, member of one of our Iii-st. e dud she w“ flillllll(tS'—y0ll know thing they writc! 'I‘herc's nothing ,,in it, it's best not to road it. peopl “If I thought marrying

" 911)’, and hire a little e go nut to rcal country 11f one cheaply. I'll do We can live on 111E. and put away every 1 1111511111; your mother. l

n, (jllltfllllnil you 1411011," I suirl suddenly. than you planned. I have to have ack m take h“ 3W3)’ lunch at good restaurants-J’

"Of course," I said amiably, won- dering what this ivas leading to. “And you'll have guests. only good buslhess.

"I had Gwen down for lunch to-

Ono Inst little incident transpired

possessed by her to make the flnal days in the ci-ty

have." Jlc guvc n iiltlc i Y°f1_mlB811-IE the trai

twist to his shoulders.

Shirley, my little Iisping friend, was in to sec ime. books ready to ship to the country

elm answemqi 11v p001‘ 1lon._ At some time in ‘her married‘ ' 0t ‘Fythiflthfifivi: man would bring me more Imp ii-wllfn every Wfililll-ll looks at her lurs-1ics I have-that morning. Ilut it

some very good m, Ilut ztppnriautly- ll1ll2lllll, not. 11s tlmug 91181". standing there

wont for ll. swim at the beach. Sun-

lplaiiucd ll. tramp over thc hills for I ulwuyiptho afternoon, and that morning we mputicntvhnd breakfast out on Ulle porch and

1i nizuic muffins while Win made coi- I ivont 0n with my critical inspec-‘ice.

I1 ho wcro ihrqumlr-d zit noon.

a lighted miatch "Irlnvc you licardilllll’ 111111 Site's coming again Friday the uewrcst? Thai. odious Sir -C'Iiris

. l1 I t t- l» 1' not? Ho w-us Iiziudling her invest‘ you 11110“, W911 11151 111-1311111131, 11 mcnts. Yet I sliivcred u little at the he b 1 thought. Wns Gwen alwuys to be iIy-

other side-——there's doesn't. You're no liétpplol‘ than I1" his brows drawn up

~11 11,1111; you're vm-y 11131-9 gmng you had married that young mil~

to a tiny plaice in the country," she said. "Gwen thald the only way to (have ith to make more, not

That was what lI wanted to k-now. 1111715911, but his fore him. I went 5011' who l5 11911‘

lent love to all n11r

91011158 to the D “Gwen is only partly right," I an-

appears little _lMary lllanstlcn-J‘ swored, crossly. “The only way to

‘man Sllf! irzis wmlded to‘, or that $1101 For at noon :1 grout cur slid up {was surf» slic Will-l going to love for-i Iionaire your aunt hzid her hozirtjovcr 11nd evur but us shc 11112111111110 the house for mn and I Weill set 0n.-no, I don't believe any mnnjlluilc :11. some pcrfcct stranger, Sfiillf.‘ imperfect specimen I might us ivvll doubtful pvrsnu nu whom Silo ‘bonds gut-sis wv-rc. Thcy WON‘: Gwendolyn, have tho consolation 0f .1. big in- conio and an established posltionfifl

111ml n. party of friends.

'l‘l1c 1min who looks up to lI|I!(‘l1